I still miss you...  / Britt D. (Grandaughter)

But I still miss you
All the times we spent together
To hear you talk about the weather
I always prayed you'd get well soon
I wish my prayers came true
I know Jesus has the answer
And He's way bigger than the cancer in you
But I still miss you

--I still miss you by Hawk Nelson

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Still hurts....  / Jeannette
Three years tomorrow since I flew back into town to spend the last day of your life with you in the hospital. I will forever be thankful that GOD allowed us all to be together before you left. 

I remember how we all prayed together as you were leaving us. I wish we would pray together as a family like that again. I saw the tear in your eye and will never forget it. I miss you dad and this pain in my heart just wont subside. 

Still hard to believe that three years have gone already. Time just keeps passing by us and nothing can hold it back.  I know one day I will see you again but I sure miss you being here. Miss calling asking for advice, seeing you, hearing you etc. The kids miss you and continue to talk about you like your still here.  I suppose you are in a way because you are in my heart and in my thoughts every day.  I look at pictures all the time and keep one on my desk. Maybe because I still cant believe your gone from here. Guess I could go on and on....Just wish you were here, thats all, even though I know being with Jesus is much better. 

I will forever hold on to the way you signed your email that day in your letter to us after Thanksgiving. 

Eternal Love dad, eternal love. 
Until I see you again.....

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Pop... / Vincent
Hey Pop,

Just stopping by to visit.

You're still in my thoughts.

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My heart aches, My life is not the same  / Jeannette
I woke up this morning and at 730 my heart began to pound with pain and tears began to fall. This was the time your head turned and the angel carried you to heaven from the hospital that morning. I looked at mommy and had to tell her you were gone.

Although I know you are at peace, for me, now here, hurts alot. I miss my father, the strength I relied even when I lived far away. I knew I could always rely on you for reassurance, advice, answers and strong opinions you had on everything. 

I miss you so much dad, Like Melissa said, there arent enough words that will ever express how I feel inside now that your gone. The girls are growing and Elyse reads the letter you wrote her and holds on to it for accountability. 

Our family is not the same without you. I hope you knew how much we loved you and how thankful I am for how hard you worked to provide for us and bring us up right . I am so thankful that God gave us the chance to grow closer through the years. Eternal Love Daddy Close

1/9/07  / Melissa

Two years past but yet time moves slowly 
Still
Lingering memories remain keep replaying 
Can't
Learning to live life accepting you're gone
Believe
That day you were taken from us too soon 
You're
Holding on to memories I keep in my heart
Gone



All I do, All I say, Wherever I go, Every Day
Is Done with the prayer that you are by my side
Who can I turn to when I need advice
Michael needs his grandpa back......
He misses you so much 
I can't get over it, I can't accept it
Please help me find the comfort in my heart
To fill that void that was placed when you left
I need reassurance that you are with me
Please let me know you're here with me now.

I love you and miss you, so much in fact
that no amount of words said or unsaid
one time or a million times
whispered or screamed 
could ever explain.
My heart is broken without you.
I want my dad back.

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Grandpa / Brittany
I wrote this just after Grandpa passed away.

Friends, family, hugs, kisses,
no one knows how much I miss him.
He was always always there,
and he always cared.
As he lay helpless in bed, almost dead,
I, in my heart knew what lies ahead.
His earthly life over,
Heavenly just begining,
I know deep inside me the angels are singing.
As I long to just see his face once again,
I know that he will stay with Jesus,
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Jan 9,2006-Seems like yesterday....  / Jeannette (Daughter)
Seems like it was only yesterday that we were sitting in the hospital as you struggled through your last day with us. We thought you would come back home with us, but instead you left with Jesus and went home with HIM.  I know in my heart you are well now, but I miss you terribly here.  It is still painful to think that I must wait to see you again. Still feels like I am in a bad dream. Still hard to believe. Time wont stop, so we continue moving on, holding on and taking you with us in our hearts and memories now. The house is not the same without you there. Our lives our not the same without you here. You made an impact on our lives Dad that we carry each day. The holidays were not the same, nor will they ever be because I miss you daddy.
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Jan 9, 2006-One Year Today  / Melissa

One year of grief
One year of tears
Memories linger on
One year of hurt
One year of sorrow
I can't believe you're gone
One year of anger
One year of disbelief
Missing you so
One year of pain
One year of heartache
How can I let it go
One year without you
One year of praying it will get easier
Knowing you're in a better place
But I still can't still your face
Stop the video in my mind
That only plays pause and rewinds
The images the words that night
When you ultimately lost the fight
One year of holidays
One year of birthdays
One year without my dad.

1/9/06

Missing you so much the pain just aches in my heart. I love you so much and I really pray you are in Heaven looking down on me. This is only the first of many years of feeling this emptiness without you here. It will NEVER be the same without you here no matter what.


Eternal Love,
Melissa

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10/16/05-Thinking of you dad,  / Jeannette (Daughter)

As we continue on this journey of life here, without you, I recall many of the things you talked about, said and beliefs you had. I look at your pictures and hold on to memories as tight as I can.

Cant really express this empty feeling I have since you left.Sometimes I am angry dad, that you left so soon. The kids miss their grandpa. I know its better where you are with Jesus but I suppose I am angry and a bit jealous all at the same time.

It is very different now. I still really cant believe your gone. I still cant go into the house or your office without breaking down crying. Funny thing, your presence is still there. I love you dad, and I sure do miss talking with you like we did, and really miss hearing your voice, except when I watch old videos. You will always be alive in my heart and I wait until I will see you again in Heaven with Jesus.

Eternal Love, (like you said),
Oh, and in regards to the last letter you wrote all of us last November after thanksgiving, I am proud to be the daughter of VIncent Isaac Servis, I am proud to be your daughter Dad.

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Pain,Pain,Go Away!!  / Jeannette August 8, 2005
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Anniversary-April 10,2005 / Jeannette (Daughter)
Dad,
Thank you for keeping our family together.Through all of the difficulties that come in a marriage. You and mommy kept it together and kept our family together. I will always be proud of you daddy and of mommy for giving your lives to the values of our family and showing us that even through hard times, marriage can be victorious. I know it meant alot to you to have been here for this day, but God needed you there and didnt want you to suffer anymore. So, just know that even though you are not here that we are all still remembering this day that you married mommy. Although it is not a happy one, it still is and will always be an important date in our lives.
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Happy Easter / Melissa
Dad, I hope you will be there in spirit with us today at dinner. We are having it at my house, actually the first and last holiday. I went to the cemetary today and broke down crying thinking about how strong you were and how you said you would be ok. I'm mad because you weren't going to be ok and I know you knew that. Maybe if you weren't such a strong person I wouldn't feel like this but I know you pushed on for us until the last breath. I've had 2 dreams about you, but I'm sure you know that. I hope they mean something. I hope they are signs from you that you're ok. I miss you dad more than I can ever describe. I have never felt this ache in my heart before, it hurts so bad. I love you and will continue to pray that God will give me the strength to believe that you are in fact in a better place. Close

3/20/05-Remembering you..  / Jeannette (Daughter)
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3/19/05-Every memory counts......  / Melissa (Daughter)
We drove by the house in Jackson tonight with mom and I want you to know that every memory I can hold on to of you I do.  Whether it is you on a video, pictures, or even stories from Uncle Jimmy. I don't know whether it helps me or not but I cherish those things so much now. Things maybe while you were here with us didn't seem so important but now they mean the world to me. I love you and miss you. Every day I think of you but only a few days I really break down and feel like it's so hard to deal with. I have your picture on my fridge and every time I pass by it I just stare in disbelief. Even to visit you at the cemetary still brings a sense of being in a bad dream....wondering when I will wake up and you will be there at the house. It seems now as if time is going by so slowly, and it's making you not being here so much harder. Almost like I wish time would speed up and the grieving would be over. I laugh when I think about the way you were, and I try to hold on to those happier times which we did have. I love you daddy and I will always be your little girl. (Remember what I wrote in the card I gave you!) Close

3/18/05-in my thoughts every day  / Son
Hey Pop,

Just wanted to say hi, and I think about you all of the time.  The pain is still deep inside of me.  I wish we could have shared more of this love in our lives.  I hope your looking down here every now and then.  I'd hate to think that when I look up for guidance or to say hi, that you're not there...

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3/9/05-Miss you Dad, more than you know..  / Jeannette R. (Daughter)

Daddy,

I miss you so much, more than you'll know,

This pain in my heart, I pray it will go.

Why Lord, Why now,

Did my dad have to leave,

Just when our family started to cleave.

 

Watching him suffer on that final day,

Seems so unfair, that he would have to leave that way.

I rebuke cancer in your Name Jesus,

Its not the way man should die,

It leaves so many questions of WHY?

Jesus, I know my father is well with you now,

And he is restored and all new,

But we are now hurting,

And feeling very blue.

 

How do we live with this pain in our hearts?

This emptiness that filled us,

When my dad had to part.

 

Help me Lord, get through this day.

With your guidance I can find a way,

Help me Lord,

Heal this pain, and please take my tears away.

I miss my dad, I miss him so,

Lord, he was only 60 years old.

My mom, she's all alone now,

Dealing with life on her own,

Would you stay with her please,

Let her know your love and

That you will meet her needs.

 

Be with her now Oh God,

And show her the way,

To live life to its fullest,

And enjoy every day.

She fulfilled her vow to dad,

Faithful, loyal and true

And for us kids too,

So Lord continue to bless her,

With all the things you do,

Thank you Lord for your love,

That you gave to us and to dad,

You let us be together that day he left,

And for that we were glad.

Stay with us and help us all,

As we continue to grow,

Help us to learn from dads life,

That love we must all know.

 

It took us time to find this out,

And his illness brought this about,

His heart grew tender towards the end,

He finally told us he was proud,

Of who we grew to be,

But by this time, he was leaving us,

I suppose this is how it was intended to be

We must cherish each day that you give us,

Love each other, through it all,

The ups the downs and the in between,

For tomorrow is not promised but we have today

To live and remember dad and all of his ways

Take them, use them, and have better days.

 

I miss you dad, I love you too,

Its not goodbye, its see you soon.

 

Eternal Love, Jeannette

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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That Day... By Jeannette  / Jeannette (Daughter)

T  h  a  t     D  a  y



I remember that day we got the news,
That you would be leaving soon,
They told us it was cancer,
And not much that they could do.

Three months the doctor said,
Is all we would have left with you,
As days past you could hardly walk,
We didn't know what to do.

You stayed strong, but mostly for us,
Told us you would be okay.
Took the meds, beared the pain,
Not knowing how long you would stay.

We sat with you that final day,
And watched you suffer through,
For the most part, we were speechless.
Just kept saying we love you.

I remember the tear, I saw in your eye,
And with your groans, you said goodbye,
No more suffering, No more pain,
Eternal Life you were about to gain.

With each slow breath,
You drifted away,
As we held your hand,
Knowing this was your last day.

We gathered around your bed,
At the hospital that night,
We stood there watching you, our father,
Trying to push through and fight.

I miss you daddy,
More than you know,
Life wont be the same here.
As we continue to grow.

Each day is so hard,
Just to get by,
I keep hearing you say to us,
Please don’t cry.

We will try to be strong,
This is what you said we should do,
But, I miss you daddy,
And Life is not the same without you.

Eternal Love Daddy, Jeannette

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Happy Birthday / Melissa (Daughter)

As I stand inside this horrific dream
I feel that life is not what it may seem
I try to fill thoughts with sweet memories
But they are replaced with tears and emotional pleas
Why did this happen without any clues
I can still remember the day we heard the news
I sat beside you and cried gently yet
You said something I will never forget
I'll be okay, don't cry for me
But through your eyes I still could see
Remaining strong as you always had been
Why my father God why did you take him
60 years passed, how many left to live
To see him one more time what would I give
My heart, my soul, my body aches
How grieving consumes you, your life it takes
I have only pictures and stories they tell
Of a wonderful dad I knew so well
All the times I never knew you loved us, you did
You just couldn't show it, it was something you hid
I now have to live, it's like never ending rain
They say you're in heaven with no more pain
Well I say Dad! I want you back here now
I don't care when I don't care how
Please why God can't you let him be
I want my daddy back, to hear once again he loves me


Dad, you are always in every thought I have of every minute of the day. I miss you horribly and I love you so much. I pray you know how much I miss you and how much the words you said the last few months meant to me. But that can't change the fact I would do anything to have you back one more day. But in reality, I will wait to see you again in heaven.

Eternal Love.

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happy b-day pop  / Son
There isn't a day that goes by, that I don't think about you.

You are in all of my thoughts, all of the time.

2/24/44 will never be forgotten.  A birthday it is, but I can't say happy, because I'm still very sad (from January 9th).

love,
Vinnie

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Star Ledger Postings.. / Jeannette (Daughter)
The following were postings that some made to the Star Ledger Newspaper, Newark, NJ  guest book for my father.

Greatly Missed
by Amy Richards

A Fathers touch, A Daddy's kiss,
A grieving Daughter, You're greatly missed.
An empty house, An empty chair,
A fathers love, No longer there.
A broken heart, Tear filled eye,
Another soul to fill the sky.
Many memories in my mind,
Some I laugh, Some I cry.
The times we shared, The laughs we had,
Things I miss when I think of you Dad.
Realizing that's all I have to hold on too,
Only memories, Of what once was you.
Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.
That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.
No more smile on your face,
No more warmth of your embrace.
The last hug, The last kiss,
The last "goodbye" leaves me with one last wish...
To have you Dad, here today,
Never to leave your Daughter this way.
A Father's touch, A Daddy's kiss,
A grieving Daughter, YOU'RE GREATLY MISSED!

We love you daddy, your girls, Jeannette, Yvonne, and Melissa!
I thank GOD that HE allowed us to all be with you as a family as you left here and joined HIM in Heaven. Eternal Love, Jeannette 

 
February 4, 2005
Safety, when I think of my dad thats the first thing that comes to mind. How safe and protected we felt. I am so overjoyed knowing that my father is in heaven right now. That is the greatest gift that my dad has ever given me. As strong and independent my dad was , he too looked to Jesus for comfort and strength. Cancer can destroy your body but not your soul. In my eyes my dad fought cancer and won eternal life. No more pain..I love you dad and your grandkids miss you too. 
Yvonne Desch (Brick, NJ ) 
 
February 3, 2005
It is not even a month since you left us, but it feels like forever. I pray you knew we were with you that morning, holding your hand. You gave up a fight until the end, and I wouldn't have expected any less. I will always be your little girl and I love you more than you will ever know. I miss you. 
Melissa LaTerra (Brick, NJ ) 
 
February 2, 2005
May God continue to Bless the family of Vincent Servis...And remember prays heals along with time.Be Blessed Donna and Family 
Donna Hayes (Ocean Twp, NJ ) 
 
February 2, 2005
We are praying for the comfort of the Lord for all of you.
Love Jim & Family 
Jim Servis Jr. (San Ramon, CA ) 
 
February 1, 2005
I love you and miss you terribly dad. You were an inspiration of strength to me. You made me feel safe even from a distance. I know you are restored and no longer suffering. I will see you soon in heaven one day. Its so hard believe that you are gone. I will forever be a proud daughter. You are alive in my heart and with GOD.
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